Just Breathe

Alarm clock screaming bare feet hit the floor
It’s off to the races everybody out the door
I’m feeling like I’m falling behind, it’s a crazy life

9 years now in the game. 3 years into this 6 year cycle. Right before you win you always face the greatest doubt that you need to stop moving forward. Fear, Uncertainty, Doubt, these are the poisens of community and human progress. We see it in politics as much as open source. It’s why I (try at least) don’t spit poison on people’s communities and mindsets. Flustered people are useless people. Focus. Drive forward. See the road we are forging the world we can all build together.

Ninety miles an hour going fast as I can
Trying to push a little harder trying to get the upper hand
So much to do in so little time, it’s a crazy life
It’s ready, set, go it’s another wild day
When the stress is on the rise in my heart I feel you say just

Breathe, just breathe
Come and rest at my feet
And be, just be
Chaos calls but all you really need
Is to just breathe

I do often need to just breathe. I laughed at myself at 26, knowing that with lofty goals and expectations come the likelihood that those would be broken and unfulfilled. Only a blistering pace, resiliency, and unbreaking spirit can win us what we seek to produce in the world. Emotion is good, it comes in waves for me, and at times, I need to collapse in order to reframe my mindset and steady the hand on the invisible wheel.

Third cup of joe just to get me through the day
Want to make the most of time but I feel it slip away
I wonder if there’s something more to this crazy life
I’m busy, busy, busy, and it’s no surprise to see
That I only have time for me, me, me
There’s gotta be something more to this crazy life
I’m hanging on tight to another wild day
When it starts to fall apart in my heart I hear you say just

Oh boy, this part of the song breaks me every time. Every time I hear “busy busy busy” and “me me me” I think of the times my kids have encouraged daddy to play at the dinner table while I work towards some next impossible thing. Some impossible thing when they are right there, tugging on my arm. “Poppa, you play with me”. Yes hunny… just as soon as daddy answers this email, this issue, this cool idea, this request. Really, all the screen does is demand more attention then those around me.

A quote from Man in the High Castle Season 2 (Episode 2) cut right through me tonight: “Are you here right now or are you often nowhere?”

“What do you mean?”

“Well.. are you not here right now or is it that you are always lost in thought everywhere. Such a sad idea. If your mind is somewhere else, are you really here at all. And is this reality if you aren’t really here?”

Breathe, just breathe
Come and rest at my feet
And be, just be
Chaos calls but all you really need

And I have. Do you stop and take a breathe? Really, just stop everything, close your eyes, and focus only on your own breathing. With all the chaos and spinning of life around you, we all need a moment to drown out the noise with silence.

Is to take it in, fill your lungs
The peace of God that overcomes
Just breathe (just breathe)
let your weary spirit rest
Lay down what’s good and find what’s best
Just breathe (just breathe)

Just breathe, just breathe
Come and rest at my feet
And be, just be
Chaos calls but all you really need
Is to just breathe
Just breathe

I believe. More now, then ever; because I see how close we are. I know what pieces are in motion and what more are possibly in play. These discussions, invites, acceptances, affordances, open minds, and good vibes wouldn’t come if it wasn’t the case.

The cycle is just beginning. Time to reset in this season. Enjoy time with friends and family (actually enjoy it). Then, in the moments of silence and still. Open the keys, and obliterate complacency one line at a time.


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